For those of you who don’t do social media and just read my blog from time to time then it might come as a shock to you but yes, we are expecting a little girl on July 4th, 2019. We are so excited, nervous and scared. I really never knew how hard pregnancy would be but wow has it been difficult but in the end we know it will all be worth it!
If you read my blog often you’re aware that I’ve had a previous miscarriage 2 years ago and we have been trying to get pregnant again ever since then. It’s been so hard. I had even downloaded some app that tells you when you’re ovulating, I also went to tons of different Obgyn’s, we finally settled on one I really liked and she started me on progesterone pills, honestly wasn’t really a huge fan of them because they made me feel a little depressed and gave me horrible headaches but I guess it helped me with my pregnancy journey so they do have a good side.
November 2nd 2018, My husband Dennis mentioned to me that I hadn’t gotten my period, (when you’re trying to conceive for years and years your significant other knows everything about your cycle just as much as you do haha) I told him I was sure I was going to get it any day now and told him I wasn’t worried, you see every month when we thought maybe this was our month and we finally though we got pregnant my menstruation would happen and I would get really sad, frustrated and disappointed, imagine doing that over 25 times and taking tons of pregnancy tests in between just to be left heartbroken. It was too much for me mentally.
So back to November 2nd, Dennis asked me if I wanted to get a pregnancy test, I said no a couple of times but then I finally caved. I bought the pregnancy test and peed on cup for the millionth time and walked away not really thinking much came back a couple of minutes and saw two strips I was shocked and ran to Dennis to tell him, we were so happy but were honestly super afraid to show it. We sat on the bed and talked and said we’d go to OB to confirm, she confirmed it and we were so happy!
I think it was a couple of days later when I had a horrible ear infection and had to stay at the hospital for a couple of days because I wasn’t feeling better after taking meds. The whole time I was so worried about the baby, I cut everything out of my life, friends, events and work trips. My world then and now was having a healthy pregnancy. When I tell you this pregnancy so far has been crazy I’m not kidding you, just days after I was released from the hospital and my ears were feeling better, Dennis had an accident and a piece of his pointer tip finger chopped off, it was bloody and messy and yes that meant another trip to the ER, Dennis chopped it off so bad they had to do surgery on his finger and he had to stay at the hospital the next day. I was so worried about him since I’m the one usually at the hospital, I’ve never really seen him injured and that scared the hell out of me.
The crazy month didn’t end, a couple of weeks after Dennis lost the tip of his finger I started to bleed and I was a mess, I fully thought I was having a miscarriage, by this time i was about 8 weeks and the bleeding started at night, I went to bed crying and Dennis comforting me. The next day we decided to go to the ER to check and see if I had a miscarriage, I was a wreck and crying but it turns out I had a Subchorionic Hemorrhage which I guess is really common in pregnancy, its a hematoma that bleeds if you’re too active but it usually goes away on its own, you just have to not lift anything and try to stay in bed as much as possible. I had about 2 more bleeding scares after the initial big one but I became more and more calm along the way ( or at least tried). When you’ve had a previous miscarriage any bleeding while pregnant scares you. It wasn’t until about my 15th week of pregnancy that the hemorrhage went away but of course something else was happening, I was told I had a low lying placenta and that once again I would be out on bed rest until it goes up. At my 25 week scan the placenta finally moved up and I passed my glucose test (to see if I have gestational diabetes) but they found out I’m anemic so I have to start taking iron supplements.
I’m now 28 and a half weeks pregnant on the 3rd trimester and this is the best I’ve felt all pregnancy long. I’m so happy our baby girl is doing so well! She’s moving like crazy but it’s absolutely the best feeling when she moves in my belly and its also still weird and crazy, the feeling is something else. I want to give a special shout out to my husband Dennis, I’ve been so hormonal these last couple of months and he’s been super amazing, I really couldn’t ask for a better husband. Love you.
And to anyone who is reading this and has had miscarriage(s) and is struggling with infertility I know how difficult it is and how hard it is every month and just know you’re not alone and my hope for you guys is that your receive your special miracle just like I received mine. I’m sending you all positive love.
To my future daughter, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ALREADY AND I CAN’T WAIT TO HOLD AND KISS YOU AND SPOIL YOU, YOU’RE SO LOVED ALREADY.
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